Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Double Whammy!

Wow!  I heard from 2 of my friends today both updating me on their pregnancies.  One is having a girl (she has two boys right now) and the other one found out she is having twins (she has 3 boys)!!!  It was just a little too much.  I love both these women so much and I am beyond happy for both of them, but I couldn't help but be a little jealous and disappointed in my own situation.  My friend that is having twins is wonderful though.  She asked about me and told me she'll keep praying for me.  She knows how difficult this is and I'm very grateful to have her in my life.  She is amazing!  She recommended I try her doctor so P and I are meeting with him next week.  I have to keep trying something to get a baby.  It doesn't matter to me if I have the baby or if we adopt a baby.  I am just ready to start our family.

Monday, January 30, 2012

What Now?

I'm struggling trying to figure out new ways to get the word out that we are adopting.  We have pass along cards, we've posted on Facebook, my button is on numerous blogs.  And yet......nothing.  I went to post again on Facebook this morning and it just didn't feel right, so I deleted my post.  I need some new ways to let people know.  If I had tons of money, I'd rent a billboard along I-15 and post there. :)  It's time to start thinking outside the box.  I have to get the word out!  I want our birth mom to be able to find us.  I just keep thinking there is a little girl out there waiting for us to find her.  How???  What now?

Thursday, January 26, 2012

One Letter

It's been a particularly difficult few weeks.  I've been praying for a few months now that I could get a few more clients for my business.  Heavenly Father granted my request and I went from being part-time to WAY over full time.  It will just be for a short while, until I clean up everyone's books, finish up month end and year end and then I can get back to a normal schedule.  But these past few weeks have been tough.  It was a daily reminder that I had nothing else to fill my days with, except for work, so I may as well take it.

Although it's been hard, I know these clients were an answer to my prayer and that it was Heavenly Father's hand in my life that brought them to me.  I can see him preparing me and P for the time when we become parents.  He is getting everything in order, so when the time is right, we are ready.  In both my work and P's work, we have to work late nights and long hours to finish up a few projects, but once they are done, we will both have more time on our hands and hopefully we will be able to fill them by being parents.

When I walked into my office this morning to start work, there was a letter on my keyboard from P.  It was the sweetest, most loving letter.  It means the world to me that I am so loved by my best friend and that I get to be married to him.  Not everyone is as lucky as I am to be totally in love with the man you married (even after 10 years!).  It was just what I needed to get through the next couple weeks.  He is going to be a wonderful father and I can't wait for the day when I get to see him in action.  That little baby is going to be the luckiest little thing ever!